cause and effect

Yesterday, Manila's temp hit a whooping 36.8C at 3pm. Thank God I was under the roof of St. Anthony's church in Legarda praying the rosary while sweating rivers. I'm now watching TV and this Nestle ice cream of Sharon Cuneta comes on. Seriously... who could resist such cool comfort food!???

ME!!

Why??? Because after the commercial appeared, my superego ruled over my id by telling me that if I do go running after that one scoop of Nestle ice cream, I'd be as big as its endorser!! Nooooooo wayy!

So tell me, isn't it worth resisting???

Where'd my cup of coffee go? Haha ;p

only the truth

I did some thinking after dinner today and made some resolutions. I know it's mid-year but this is something I wanna do for the rest of my life. See, being raised away from the Philippines, my parents always told me never to tell the truth about my life to anyone unless I can assure and re-assure myself that this person can be trusted. Very few people know the history of my life and what I've been through. I guess you can call them priveleged, but I'm scared one day they'll turn against me and ruin my paradise life. Ha ha!

Well, yes... I do solemnly promise that when my new crush contacts me and asks me to hang out, I'll rev up all my courage and spill the beans. It's a risky thing but I don't wanna let this opportunity pass since this guy seems to be a good future friend/partner etc..

Let's see where this goes. I hope and pray he contacts me before it's time for me to fly out. C'monnnn let's hang out my dear crush!! :) I can't wait already Ha ha ha ha :P

bills!

Many people are amazed when they hear that I live alone in my house. I usually get shocked when I get that reaction coz I feel that at 23, it is kinda expected for any woman or man to do so. It's good in a way because you can do what you want when you want. Nobody is going to drag you out of bed at 5 in the morning or ask you to cook for them. All you get is peace and quiet--oh plus hunger too. Ha ha! The setback here is that if anything happens or if anything is questioned, the only answerable person is ME. Yes ME!!

Like today mail came in and they were all bills. Seriously! I don't wanna break down how much I need to pay but it's making me quite guilty coz the electric bill is through the roof and the cable bill just made me laugh. I don't see the point of paying P500/month for a service I only use 4 hours a day. I read the bill then sit down in front of the TV flipping channels thinking... Why am I paying for something I don't even use much? I don't even know the TV scheds..! All I watch is Wowowee, Tyra, Ellen, and House among others.

What a rip off. But I've still paid it off thinking that I'd rather say good bye to a crisp yellow piece of paper with Ninoy's face on it than to kill my eyes trying to watch super blurred Channel 2. Hahaha =)

ang taray mo day!

Last week, a day after I arrived from Saudi, I attended this Basic Critical Care Nursing Course in CCNAPI. There were these two coordinators sitting at the back; they were in charge of checking attendance and doing a lot of other stuff. For the longest time, my friend and I thought that they were secretaries or runners but we were shocked when we found out that they were registered nurses!!!

Anyway, I'm not here to make them sound good after what they have done to me. Okay I admit that I was late for class almost every single day--but please don't blame the girl who has extreme jetlag and living 6 jeepney rides away from the training center!!! Plus, this doesn't give you any reason to bitch-slap me today... Yes, she's such a meanie!

So here's the scenario, I go up to her and ask if she can help me become a member of CCNAPI. Being the nice, adorable and polite person I am, I never expected her reaction!! She was so mean and telling me that I never paid attention in class or even listened to her announcement--which according to her was repeated over and over! I just asked this question, and imagine it being said by a Filipino woman in Tagalog.. yes her answer was like 3 minutes long!

I don't even know why I even thought of being a CCNAPI member.. was I drunk when I made that decision?? Geez, I'd rather not represent a group of bullies. How can one be a nurse with this attitude? Thank God she's most probably unemployed, or else her patients might have never come out of the coma scared of waking up to a witch bitch.

Peace out y'all... Just using my freedom of speech here :P

waiting waiting waiting...

Here I am waiting for the time when my new crush would send me a text when he'd be available to meet so that we could exchange talents, like he would teach me how to read EKG strips and I would teach him English. The big problem--which is the biggest here in the Philippines--is that he doesn't want to send messages or call other people outside his network. He uses the SUN network and I use GLOBE... so yeah good luck to our future. I am not even sure if there is a future.

Will update once something comes up... How I wish there was one promo where you could text anyone anytime from any network! It's frustrating when you're just waiting for a text..

don't rub it in

The sandstorm really killed my class today. I was expecting 11 children to come, but only one brave soldier came out of the haze. Thankfully, she was already a teenager and it wasn't difficult to teach her the core modelling techniques. No kids running around like crazy and no hesitations about whether I was teaching something too advanced for their age.

I woke up this morning to a very sick mother. She came down with the flu plus her vertigo came back. Mom's appetite wasn't good in the morning either, which is why I decided to spend the morning at home with her. I wasn't supposed to leave her until I got an email from Dhahran Recreation saying that I'm gonna have a class at 11am. So much for being mom's private duty nurse.

While getting ready, my mom asked me if I could get my last physical exam done in Aramco before I leave to the Philippines. I stared blankly at her, not believing that my flight's next Saturday already. She's like, "Uhhh.. yeah! You have to finish packing by Friday night honey."

The fact that I have to go just kills me. I don't feel like the same me I was yesterday. At first I thought April was ages away.. but guess what!? March has only four days left!! I'm beginning to feel sad and unsure again. Sad because I'm going to leave such a wonderful family that has taken great care of me since June 2009 and unsure because it's a new chapter in my life. I am taking this transition as positively as possible... I know it's a good change and I'll make it through.

What's interesting about my life is that I seem to be moving into great big changes every Easter Sunday. This is like the second in a row, and I feel it's a blessing...a true blessing from God. Last year, I broke up with my boyfriend and traded everything I had in the Philippines to nothing for Saudi Arabia. Well, at that time it seemed like nothing for me since I wasn't gonna get employed soon, no boyfriend, no more grad school... nothing! Just home, parents and chores. What I didn't foresee was the great big door of opportunities that was opened as I got here. I got to volunteer in two hospitals and establish a great circle of reliable friends. Also, I was able to strengthen my relationship with the folks--which was the best thing ever. =)

So yeah I'm leaving and it's a tough reality. It just gets a little annoying when people have to say it over and over again!! Well I do give them the benefit since they're not all from one circle of friends, but yes... it does hurt when they keep rubbing it in.

I may not be able to post as frequently as I do, but surely I'll write once I get to the Philippines.. Wish me strength and luck!!!

Blah Blah Blah

I seriously need to get this off my chest!! Yesterday, during one of the intermissions of the fashion show, I played the song 'Blah Blah Blah' by Kesha as a request of some of my students which unintentionally drew 1-2 violent reactions from the audience. Now, the concerned parent warned me about it although she wasn't able to mention names as she couldn't quite remember. But what amazed me was how she was able to quote some lines of the song herself... All she needed to tell me was that it was her and her hubby who didn't like it. LOL =)

Here's the video of the song:



Sorry I dunno how to adjust the dimensions of the video to fit the posting area of my block. But I think it's good enough to watch. LOL

Yes I do understand where this mother is coming from. Maybe it's coz we're in Saudi and the hitcharts don't arrive until weeks later, that explains why this song is still unheardof. But in the Billboard Hot 100, it is currently #15 and on its 11th week, if I'm not mistaken. And people mind you, the Billboard charts originate from the country this mother comes from, so it's not about crossing the line of cultures here!!!

Now, I'm not trying to defend the lyrics of the song or my students' choice of music; instead, what I'm trying to point out here is that people should open their minds more and welcome different expressions of arts and performance. I know these children are still small, but is it technically alright to keep them uninformed of what's going on outside the world their parents are trying to create?? Teenage moms are sprouting out all over the place, some even as young as 12; although media plays a huge role on this, parents could take it as a positive warning and begin to get their kids prepared to grow up!

I'm grateful my parents never kept me in the dark about sensitive issues surrounding growing up and making babies, as a matter of fact, since I was seven, I have known that babies are created when.....oh nevermind, I wouldn't wanna get all descriptive in my blog! Ha ha ha!

Back to topic!!! This mother told me all this right after the fashion show, the music was still playing, lights were on, and other parents were still taking pictures of their daughters on stage. I, on the other hand, was hellah tired with a stomach growling like crazy. At some point it was like a kick and punch to my face since I have worked so hard--without an assistant!--and it seemed like the smallest mistake ruined the entire show.

But as a child who runs home to mom after getting hurt, I was relieved when I saw my mom all the way at the back of the theater. She was all smiles and couldn't believe I have pulled such a show in 4 days. Mom never expected me to have such responsibility in my life. I did a fashion show last summer, but it had only 1 segment; this Spring we had 3 segments with 2 costume changes---yes, the daredevil I am, always pushing my luck to the limit.

So now I feel a bit more relaxed as I am finishing this blog entry. Like I said earlier, I needed to get it off my chest.

Now if ever this Mr. and Mrs. X do come across my blog, please read: Mommy and daddy, I didn't write this to piss you off or take revenge. I wrote it because I am an avid supporter of art and performing, as what you have seen during your children's fashion show. Ke$ha's song is currently doing well on the Billboard Hitchart; let us appreciate her talent and the catchy beat of the song instead of the lyrics, as many of our generation does--we like the beat, we dig it--that's all! It's not like we follow what the music says, yea-uh, coz that's just uhmmm.. plain stupid.

Well to give credit to Mrs. X's comment, I am seriously going to take some time to sit down and choose the songs carefully without needing suggestions from my students... Hmmm, democracy isn't as beneficial as I thought it was. I am such a neophyte in the directing industry that I can't stand any minor slip-ups! LOL

I can't wait to get to the Philippines to hit the Fashion runway once again =)